Inspiration – grown up child

illustration of Applejack by 10 year old me

illustration of Applejack by 10 year old me

Applejack. Isn’t she lovely? Isn’t she wonderful?

I drew this picture of Applejack when I was 9 or 10 years old. Applejack is a creature of My Little Pony, a real southern belle, beautiful as well as bold. She was my favorite of all the Pony’s I’ve owned. I liked her so much that I drew a picture of her.

I was so thrilled that my mum has kept all My Little Ponies for me. In my workspace – my woman cave – I’ve put them all together. Perhaps it sounds silly, a bit whimsical, but as Madeleine L’Engle, an American writer, used to say: “I am every age I have ever been. I was once a child, therefor I am always a child.” Childhood is the kingdom where nobody dies.

The painter Pablo Picasso also mentioned that every child is an artist. The problem is how to remain an artist once we grow up. That’s why I kept so many things as I can from my childhood. Only the best childhood memories survive in my place and in my heart. I don’t consider them childish. Not anymore, at least. I want to remain the artist I once was when I was a child, as that knowledge give me the spark of vitality I seek this year. And Applejack? She’s my talisman, the reminder of the talents I once possessed and I’d like to restore.

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New Year’s theme, a way of life

new years theme1_bewerkt-1Every year is a fresh start for me to pick a theme as my New Year’s resolution. In 2011 it was “coming home”, in 2012 I chose the theme “happiness”, and  last year it was all about “financial balance”.

I find out that choosing just one simple theme to describe how I want to feel or act or focus throughout the year, I accomplish more. Rather than New Year’s resolutions that I intend to keep, but fail the first week of February. And instead of forcing myself into unrealistic resolutions, my theme is kinder to me, for it is not a goal, but a means to the life I want to live, to the person I want to be. It is OK if every now and then I go astray. My theme is more a guru, something that will guide me in the choices I make, in the goals I set and in my plans. It’s a way of life.

A vital spark initiates your life. That spark stays with you until it fades away at life’s end. Your job is to use that spark of vitality to make your life fabulous.

(Reellifewisdom.com)

This year my New Year’s theme will be “Bringing back my Spark of Vitality”. No, it’s not about losing weight, although that would be a bonus. It’s just that a few weeks ago someone mentioned to me that her first impression of me was that I was not so energetic as she thought I would be. And another person thought I was way older than my real age. Harsh? Maybe, but it’s the cold hard truth, and I thank both persons for being honest and for opening my eyes. Apparently I don’t look as energetic as I want to be. And to be honest, a lot of times I feel as old as time itself. The last few years I kept promising myself that I will make time to do the things that I love to do, but most of the time, when I came home from work, I felt so tired and quenched that all I wanted to do was mindlessly surfing on internet or watching tv, even commercials.

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The background of the poster above is something I’ve created myself. I chose words that are synonyms of Vitality and that I like, and put it in Wordle.net.

I want to get my vital spark back to life, so I’d do the things I’d like to do with energy and passion. Vitality will be my word for 2014, to become active and strong physically as well as mentally. Vitality, gaining energy and getting a vigorous appearance. A certain spark. And maybe, just maybe, I will take on the world 🙂 (and actually create something).